Yesterday night, I’m really crazy liao…angry control my temper liao…*SQ climb up the chair again..grab papa’s wallet..*
msau asked her to come down with gentle voice…1 time…2 times..3 times…
*SQ took out all the note from wallets…then all the name card..credit card…*
msau raise voice volume and request her stop doing tat..and come down from chair…
*SQ act like not listen my voice..continued took out all the coins then throw all the thing over the floor…*
msau very angry liao…stand beside of SQ and scold her come down loudly…and simply grasped at something nearby and trying to frighten SQ stop being notty again…
(lucky I took a plaster ruler eja, kenot imagine if I took something really hard wan..)
*SQ still ignore me….took papa’s handphone…*
msau screamed until voice broken to ask SQ come down & raise the ruler..pretend wanna rotan her…
*SQ playing the handphone.. ignore me*
msau’s fire up liao… rotan SQ’s hand kao kao..
*SQ no cry no stop!!*
msau kek si…lagi angry and rotan SQ’s hand again..until ruler os broken liao…
*SQ cried & look at mama….but refuse to come down..*
msau very angry…look at SQ and wait for her to come down…(of coz heard she cried .. felt sayang liao mah..)
*SQ still crying and refuse to come down…*
msau scream “come down” *SQ kept stand there and refuse to come down*
msau scream “come down” *SQ kept stand there and refuse to come down*
msau scream “come down” *SQ kept stand there and refuse to come down*
msau scream “come down” *SQ kept stand there and refuse to come down*
Wat I’m trying to record in this post ahh?? I oso donno….
I only remembered, when SQ cried very loud but insist not to come down from chair…my heart broken liao…But I was just look at her…and kept ask myself in mind, wat I’m going to do next?? rotan her again?? or carry her down?? but no answer…
I stop there…..and both of us r in tat situation for fews mins….something like ‘enemy no move I no move oso’ (敵不動我不動).

Altho my mind telling me tat shouldn’t rotan SQ so strongly…She still very young…But I just donno how to lecture her to be good liao?? Talk good good with her..not listen…Rotan her…not listen oso…aiii…i’m going crazy liao………
When SQ being so notty..take her short chair to bathroom, climb up and trying to play the water in the big water tong…wat r u going to do?? Aiyah…I damn worry she put herself in dangerous ler….I kenot keep my eyes on her 24 hours aday ler…
haii…I told Fatty very early… I donno how to teach kids to be good…I always a ‘let it be’ person….But now…I felt lost….how to let it be? or how to teach??